So pack a change of clothes cause it's time to move on.

I swiped my card for the first time at Retro gym today, and let me tell you it felt great to work out again, I still got it in me, I didn't think I was going to be able to hold up from smoking and not excerising in months, but I did. I am on this whole "I need to focus on myself" kick, and at first it might seem kind of selfish, but it's what I need to do right now. Put every one aside and concentrate on myself.

So I added more to my New Years resolution list.

1) Dispose of anyone who has brought bad things to my life. Including liars, fakes, sketchballs, tools, and anything of that matter.

2) Make at least one person smile or feel good about themselves once a day

3) Plan more day trips and such.

4) Open up to new people

5) Notice the little things, and document them.

6) Buy a planner/journal/

7) Go to the gym at LEAST 4 times a week.

8) Hug each of my family members at least once a day

9) Buy great novelty/thrift items

10) Dance under street lights with a cute boy, make him a mix tape, go on a night picnic with him, build a tent with him, and of course a good round of hide and seek.

11) Buy every Death Cab album (I already gots 5)

12) Be open to different ideas, places, subjects.

13) Start a garden

14) Make a nice sit down dinner for my friends

15) Then have a dressed up tea party

16) Go to a NYC strung out party

17) Collect Cameos

18) Try all cultural foods

19) Eat at a chinese restaraunt where you sit on the floor

20) Twirl around in a sun dress on a hot summers right when the sun is setting in a sunflower field

I probably could go on for hours with them but these are my top 20's. Speaking of the 20's, I've grown quite an infatuation for that decade. Flappers and the style and the old sweet talkin' men. It was so quaint. Plus now at Urban they have shoes and dresses and fringed tops just like the 20's, I'm going to have to invest myself in them uglys, once I get to my goal weight of course.

So I've been doing a lot of future thinking. I just can't wait any longer to get my own apartment, as much as I love the comfort of my home I've been on this whole design kick. I either want to do every room a different city or a different generation. It's little things like these that get me so excited to grow up, yet at the same time I still act and long to do things little kids do. Like my love for still catching fire flies and blowing up balloons, and lame-o stuff like that.