Everyone can focus clearly with such shine

Forgive me for I seem to have strayed past my personal boundaries. Bring me back to who I used to be, not like she was any better. I wasn't a victim to addiction and apathy wasn't my closest friend. Forgive me for you have taught me better. I put on a facade of what I want to portray myself as, but I don't have the flexibility to mold into that person. Forgive me for what I've done with him, and him, and him, and him. Lust has blown in with this cold Winters air and seems to be tangled in my hair. Keep my from doing these things. Let me live, let me breathe easy, let me see the light, give me energy, give me strength, give me your hand. I just wish to be young again, forgive me.

Honestly, I just wrote that now. This Christmas break has been something else alright. I'm surprised I haven't spontaneously combusted yet. I'm all over the place lately but at the same time, not where I should be. This new year needs to come with a bang, A Big Bang, one that will start the world all over again. For me anyway. Lying seems to be my greatest flaw lately. I lie to get myself out of anything. It needs to end, I need to just be honest, to my parents especially. I keep so much from them and they don't deserve it. Anyway yesterday Nikki and I went to Philadelphia on a whim, and leaving we made the wrong turn and ended up going south, so we landed in Chester, PA. All I can say is she is never driving my car again. Next year she is going to Johnson and Wales in Rhode Island and I simply just don't know what I'll do without her, I love her to death and the distance between us is going to break me. I'm making a list of 100 things people don't know about me, and I think I'm going to give it to everyone. Just so they understand, some are rather comical and some are obvious but some are personal things that is tough to face myself let share with others. We'll see how it turns out.